Re-Rolling

So - Shauna let me know that I should consider writing about my experiences again. I intend to make this blog recap all my interests and the hard work and delicious grinding it takes to accomplish them. SOOOO - ya. Can't wait.

Powerless

So many things have happened over the past couple months and sometimes I feel defeated. I have been changing and all that and its fine, I am probably in the best shape of my life right now as well as getting a lot done for work and getting props for it as well.

But recently I found out that my grandfather is going to die soon. Something inside of me is really really upset about this and it hurts a lot. I am going to possibly go see him if I can get it worked out with work and if I can get the money to fly down there on short notice.

If I go.. I'll be going with my mom and seeing people I have never seen before. Anyway, I want the patience to be able to hold on when everything is out of my control. I can do my best to keep my mind off of it and worry from afar but the truth is I am unable to change other people's situation.

I really hope my Grandfather does not actually die and that I am just being off. I just have been dealing with a lot of stress recently and need "something". I don't know what it is but I am trying my best to not dwell on it.

5K is Defeated!

I beat the 5k as close to my target time as possible. The next one is going to get beaten down pretty badly as I should be improving week to week with the training regimen I am on.

This weekend, hopefully, will follow the trend of sunny weather I have been seeing. I am greatly interested in exploring more of the Penninsula area on a hike Saturday morning. I swear it better stay this nice for a while!

In other news: Obama's money might lead me to get a toy that I have been looking into recently. It will be pretty useful and it will serve as a computer hub for me where I would normally need to have a big ole' laptop.

We'll see... I am real anxious for this!

Sore From Basketball..

I played basketball for about 30-40minutes yesterday and then jogged a couple miles on the treadmill. I am very very sore. I hope that I am able to give myself enough rest to recover in full form this coming Saturday.

ON another note.. my heart is lifted every time I get to see her.

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Appointment + GYM

I can't wait until my appointment and the GYM tonight. I think it'll free some stress for me and make me feel a little better.

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Needed Shoes

I really wanted some new shoes because I felt like the shoe was starting to give out on me. Anyway, they look awesome. I intend to use these tonight to work off stress instead of playing games.

repetition

playing the same song over and over doesn't help.