Still Procrastinating

I think I get a little caught up in wanting to write something good, so I end up putting it off and not doing it so that I don't end up fucking it up.

Hawaii was supposed to be a 3-4 part tale of a young man's inability to relax.

Evo was supposed to have shorts and bios on a few players, images of referees with their cracks showing, and a warning about how I betting on Black only works for Wesley Snipes.

And, I think i'm supposed to write about how I like and dislike the social pressures in attending a wedding. Mostly the dressing up part, I like the food part, the dance part, the drink part, and the food part - I really do. I even like the marriage part.

Maybe this is the time to really start talking about going to the gym at 11 PM at night even after the murder/suicide that occured. My overpriced gym, the dangerous atmosphere, the seemlingly beached whales that are starting to compete with me for dominance - maybe i'll get to writing about that.

I don't know what I will or will not write about or when it will come out. Right now Vi is scrambling to find materials to make one of her 3 costumes for this weekend's activities. I spent the afternoon buying random sweatpants and sweatshirt from the local Target. I don't know why, but I always get a little uncomfortable in the girls section of that store. Something about "not belonging there" or people thinking I am some kind of creep if I get lost and then found in the bra section of a store.

PEOPLE CAN GET LOST.

I'll write about something... later.

So Before I go to the Gym.... Procrastihate

Going to work on getting 1 first.

Emotionality - Difficult times being the King

I think that as we get older we have to make difficult decisions about our future that do have real consequences. Just last week, I decided to eat a different dish than the one I wanted at a restaurant because someone else was going to order the bacon burger. I immediately had food envy of what I could have chosen for myself.

These choices had real consequences. I couldn't make it bacon simply because I didn't want to seem like a copy-cat (clearly a juvenile decision ingrained in my food choices).

I remember having to pick a different shoe other than the rest of DLDL so that I would not get caught wearing the same shoe at the same time. I would not have wanted to fight in the resulting cat free for all when people deliberately copy others peoples shit. The consequences are real.

So now at 25, I am unsure if I want to go the same route as others or pave my own way. I really don't want to end up with the chicken bbq burger, i mean, its "ok and all" but, I dont know. I think I know what I want to do - maybe.

There is a reason I put Sagat up here btw, not just the King reference.